Update. Short version.

Broken silence at placement and now whats happened is that my final report will contain a critism that my mentor feels is appropriate. Apparently, I'm fantastic with the residents and families, very patient and polite etc etc etc, and this has been mentioned to the staff. Its the staff that she feels are "my issue". After a very long and frankly pointless discussion because she just didn't seem to comprehend where I was coming from said "Well nursings a bitchy profession and you'll just have to toughen up". Nice.

"Its not me. I don't care that they are talking about meto each other for reason X, I do care however when that tranfers over to patient care, and it means that this supposed "standard" that I'm supposed to aspire to doesn't seem to apply to everyone else" says I.
"Well I will be mentioning it in your final report"
"Thats fine, I'll be mentioning my side too. I have taken on what you've said and I thank you for the guidance, however I don't feel supported here, I appreciate that you have family commitments and thats why you are part time, but if the substitutes that I'm paired with can't answer why I'm doing procedure X, then who am I supposed to ask?"

Anyway long story cut short (I'll no doubt update you with the long version at a more convenient time) is that I shouldn't have been asking questions about the work I was doing to Care assistants as they felt uncomfortable. Problem is my mentor was hardly ever in, and I was continuously paired with Care Assistants. Which I was fine with until I discover with 10 days to work that they have an issue with it.

Off to a more local hospital as of next Monday. One week to go where I am at the moment. Working compressed hours tomake up the day that I called in with a migraine because I was a ball hair away from jacking the whole thing in to go work in Asda and have a baby instead.

Yes I am also broody in to the equation and this month was a combination of crushing disappointment, relief and "what the hell was I thinking?". Plus nothings really changed at home so I've really got to try and make my peace with that too.

Away to catch up on my emails now.