Depressed

Utterly fucking depressed.

I don't want to talk about it, but I might be off-line for a few days until I get myself together.

I never asked to be liked, only to have a fair placement. You ask questions and they close ranks thinking you are questioning how they work (I assume). You refuse to perform illegal lifts and they tell you you are lazy. You hear them talking about you to patients, I don't give a flying fuck if they talk about me to each other, but to the patients is an entirely different ballgame.

"You're never alone on placement"? My muttony arse. I refused to cry yesterday on placement, instead waiting till I was home and eating my own bodyweight in chips and pickled onions. Damned if they see me cry. So stay happy, perky and above all helpful at all times, until I'm out of grounds and then I'm utterly dejected.

Completely scunnered, have placement details for the next placement and although I was initially wary am now just looking forward to getting out.

For for the next wee while I'm sorry guys, but its a wee bit of radio silence until I formulate what to do.