Drowning.
Circling the depressed drain. I've been trying to cling onto the sides for as long as possible, but I feel like I'm in a hole, and I'm never getting out. Like people are so far above me they can't see me.
Which is fine. I'm kinda withdrawing from everyone anyway. I don't want to see anyone, do anything, talk to anyone, finish anything, start anything.
I'll act it out anyway but I feel like my mask is slipping. I feel people can see me, the inner me. I feel like a bad person, an incomplete and lesser person. Like a faded carbon copy of what a normal person is.
I feel like I'm fading away, but I'm still right here.
I'm still here.
Chin up sweetheart.
ReplyDeleteYou have done fantastic the past few years, Passing your nursing exames, passing your driving test, etc. You have done a lot of great things so try not to lose sight of that.
If you ever want a cup of tea/ glass of wine and a good whinge, you know where I am! :D
Look at that..
ReplyDeleteI can't even spell exam!
Right. That's it. We have to meet up for lunch/dinner one day. I'm flexible and kid is no longer really a kid, so no constaints there.I have been off, as you know, so have just read a large part of the last 2-and-a-bit months entries altogether, and it's not good. Phone me. Sorry had to put you off today, but office is funny about visitors nowadays....
ReplyDeleteIt's okay. I'm balanced. I know that when people say no its not because of me per se, but other things in the way.
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