Saturday, 29 August 2009
Going to Campbeltown after all
Long story cut short - I'll be in Campbeltown for 5 weeks. Brickin' it.
Thursday, 27 August 2009
Update
Caffeine addiction has progressed to numerous cups of coffee, iced coffee from Lidls and red bull. Also from Lidls.
I'm a caffiend. See what i did there? Caf-fiend? Oh never mind.
Placement still going okay - to those of you who smoke, stop. Quite aside from my oral presentation the amount of people that are receiving palliative care as a result of smoking, and thus developed chronic lung disease is disturbing. I know, I know, we all have to die of something but this is some nasty painful distressing shit people.
Lecture over its now time for an oral update.
Went alright I think. They only asked me one question which means I've either done well or really shit. Although they didn't turn the tape off like they did with a friend of mine, which I take as a good sign. I did forget my section on communication, and also the section on ensuring patients have a good inhaler technique, but that aside I think it went okay.
Right. I'm away to Ferguslie!
Oh, I've also told the uni I won't be going to Campbeltown, its just too much trying to get 5 x 5day blocks of B&B accommodation sorted and getting it to coincide with flights and ferries.
I'm a caffiend. See what i did there? Caf-fiend? Oh never mind.
Placement still going okay - to those of you who smoke, stop. Quite aside from my oral presentation the amount of people that are receiving palliative care as a result of smoking, and thus developed chronic lung disease is disturbing. I know, I know, we all have to die of something but this is some nasty painful distressing shit people.
Lecture over its now time for an oral update.
Went alright I think. They only asked me one question which means I've either done well or really shit. Although they didn't turn the tape off like they did with a friend of mine, which I take as a good sign. I did forget my section on communication, and also the section on ensuring patients have a good inhaler technique, but that aside I think it went okay.
Right. I'm away to Ferguslie!
Oh, I've also told the uni I won't be going to Campbeltown, its just too much trying to get 5 x 5day blocks of B&B accommodation sorted and getting it to coincide with flights and ferries.
Wednesday, 19 August 2009
Caffeine Bomb!
Caffeine Bomb, whilst also the name of a Wildhearts song, is also my new name. I have developed a hefty caffeine addiction. Drinking Red Bull by the litre. Not jittery just very enthusiastic. About everything. No really.
Placement in Ferguslie is going well so far. I've been doing dressings, and injections. The staff are all lovely. I love it so far, admittedly its only been 3 days but if they can all be like this it would be wonderful.
Oral exam is tomorrow. I've chosen care of a COPD patient on oxygen therapy, whilst explaining the rationale behind the care, I've compared and contrasted two patients receiving different levels of treatment.
I'm bricking it. Now this may come as a shock to some of you, but I'm not very good at talking. I can talk aye, but this has to be at a coherent and normal pace for 15 minutes, not stammering and no swearing. I have discovered during my last oral I'm quite nervous now speaking in public. I was like a monkey on crack in January as some of you receiving text messages may attest. The good news is I am free tomorrow afternoon post oral presentation.
Luncheon?
Placement in Ferguslie is going well so far. I've been doing dressings, and injections. The staff are all lovely. I love it so far, admittedly its only been 3 days but if they can all be like this it would be wonderful.
Oral exam is tomorrow. I've chosen care of a COPD patient on oxygen therapy, whilst explaining the rationale behind the care, I've compared and contrasted two patients receiving different levels of treatment.
I'm bricking it. Now this may come as a shock to some of you, but I'm not very good at talking. I can talk aye, but this has to be at a coherent and normal pace for 15 minutes, not stammering and no swearing. I have discovered during my last oral I'm quite nervous now speaking in public. I was like a monkey on crack in January as some of you receiving text messages may attest. The good news is I am free tomorrow afternoon post oral presentation.
Luncheon?
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
Perhaps I spoke too soon ?
How do you know when something run its course? How far do you scrape the bottom of that particular barrel in the hope that you find something, anything?
How do you separate the things said that hurt you from the things that are said in an attempt to salvage?
How can you make yourself care? When all you feel is that you are emotionally exhausted from putting on that face, that face you put on to other people you pretend everything fine?
I really can't give anymore. I don't think I have anything left. I'm like a dry brittle husk of a woman and if you hit me one last time, that little bit harder, I will shatter.
How do you separate the things said that hurt you from the things that are said in an attempt to salvage?
How can you make yourself care? When all you feel is that you are emotionally exhausted from putting on that face, that face you put on to other people you pretend everything fine?
I really can't give anymore. I don't think I have anything left. I'm like a dry brittle husk of a woman and if you hit me one last time, that little bit harder, I will shatter.
Monday, 3 August 2009
feeling a bit better
I've heard it said that the unexamined life is not much worth living, I've examined and changes are afoot. Now I'm back to being full of rage. Convinced I can change the world, speak 30 languages and master kung fu. By next week.
"And I won't sit down
and I won't shut up
But most of all I will not grow up"
Oh Frank Turner, I think I love you. Come 15th October me and you, face to face. Aye.
In fairness hes playing Glasgow QMU, I'm not stalking him or anythin creepy like that. Seriously for those of you who haven't checked him out already, go and fire up you tube.
I heartily recommend:
"Once we were anarchists"
"Love Ire and Song"
"Photosynthesis"
"Reasons not to be an idiot"
Good lad.
So aye, I'm mostly back but I'm working on changing a few things in my life. This might go badly for some parties concerned, I only have one shot at life though and I refuse to spend it struggling with the shitness of the petty stuff that stops me looking at the big stuff. In a nutshell I'm going for a dose of hedonism and selfishness. I'm saying no a lot more and I'm not listening to people who try to mould me to something I'm not. You don't like it, fuck right off then and tell it to someone who gives a shit.
"And I won't sit down
and I won't shut up
But most of all I will not grow up"
Oh Frank Turner, I think I love you. Come 15th October me and you, face to face. Aye.
In fairness hes playing Glasgow QMU, I'm not stalking him or anythin creepy like that. Seriously for those of you who haven't checked him out already, go and fire up you tube.
I heartily recommend:
"Once we were anarchists"
"Love Ire and Song"
"Photosynthesis"
"Reasons not to be an idiot"
Good lad.
So aye, I'm mostly back but I'm working on changing a few things in my life. This might go badly for some parties concerned, I only have one shot at life though and I refuse to spend it struggling with the shitness of the petty stuff that stops me looking at the big stuff. In a nutshell I'm going for a dose of hedonism and selfishness. I'm saying no a lot more and I'm not listening to people who try to mould me to something I'm not. You don't like it, fuck right off then and tell it to someone who gives a shit.
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